This disease is traumatizing. It is shocking. It takes away my sense of normal. It makes people I love unpredictable and scary. It undermines my trust and faith in an orderly and predictable world and in my primary relationships. Sometimes the earth beneath me can feel un-solid, shaky and unreliable. And when I feel like
I didn’t cause it, I can’t control it and I can’t cure it. I didn’t cause it, I can’t control it and I can’t cure it. I didn’t cause it, I can’t control it and I can’t cure it. I need to repeat and repeat this to myself in order to deal with my powerful
Today, I will not hide my pain and suffering from myself or from my Higher Power. When I bring my most honest and pure self to the fore, when I am truly willing to turn over my angst to a power greater than myself, something changes. I let go and create space for a shift
My only job is to stay on my own path. I cannot help anyone who doesn’t want my help. If someone wants what I have they will also want to find it in their own way. I cannot really teach anyone. I cannot really save anyone. Especially those close to me. My feelings of disgust
I need to detach with love from those I care about who are still mired in this disease. I will tolerate the pain of watching. When I detach with resentment, it is not detachment, it keeps me preoccupied and connected. When I amputate, it is not detachment, I develop phantom limb. I still hurt where
I can only live one hour at a time. This hour. All I have to do is to live this hour well and let the rest take care of itself. All I have to do is not self medicate, act out or sink into despair or emotional drunkenness this one day. I can do, a
I will live this day and all that’s in it. I will appreciate what has been given to me. I wake out of a warm bed and I say thank you. I have a morning cup of tea or coffee and I say thank you. I recognize that I have a safe and comfortable place
I will not take the fall for anyone any more. If I misbehave I will promptly admit it and I will take steps to rectify things. I will keep my side of the street clean. If someone else misbehaves, it’s theirs to correct, not mine. I cannot manage a relationship conflict from both ends. When
Today, the only questions I need to ask in any given situation I am in are “what am I meant to learn here, how do I need to grow here, what is life trying to teach me?