I am leaving this disease behind me. I cannot get where I need and want to go dragging it any more. What I used to accept as business as usual, I see today as a legacy of dysfunction, a legacy that I don’t need or want to continue. I have been trying to fix this long enough, it’s unfixable. I have been trying to spackle in the ever widening cracks between myself and this disease, but it never really holds. I have had enough. I am not bigger or more powerful than this disease. Today I allow myself to move forward into my own life with or without anyone else. Today I see that the only person I can change is myself and that trying to fix everyone else only causes them to make me the problem. They will change in their time, not mine. I have a right to wriggle lose and lead my own life whether or not they see the disease as I am now learning to see it. I have a right to be free. I surrender

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year’s course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word ‘happy’ would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. 

Carl Jung