My grandiosity covered up my shame. My arrogance hid my insecurity. My unwillingness to learn form others covered up my chronic mistrust and suspicion. As long as I kept myself from knowing how shaky I felt inside by medicating rather than feeling my insecure, anxious or depressed feelings, I could remain in my head. I was the smartest dummy around. I had an answerer for everything and a myriad of excuses and explanations that allowed me to keep a distance from what was really going on. I lived in my head because living in my heart hurt too much. Today I feel the freedom, strength and empowerment of humility. Without humility, I cannot learn. Without humility, I will not be able to open my eyes and heart to truly respect what life is saying to me, teaching me or giving to me.

I only have to be me.

When I was young, I said to God, ‘God, 
tell me the mystery of the universe.’ 
But God answered, ‘that knowledge is for
me alone.’ So I said, ‘God, tell me the 
mystery of the peanut.’ Then God said,
’Well, George, that’s more nearly your size.’

George Washington Carver