I need to remember that emotions run high during recovery. My joys are higher, I feel my sorrows more keenly as I heal them and my longings are stronger. The world is more intense than it usually is. When I forget this, I want to push away my inner world and I get afraid of what I’m experiencing if it doesn’t fit my image what I’m supposed to be feeling. I start to feel out of step if  I’m not where I think I should be, I see others as more able to manage their lives or having a better experience than I am having. Then I engage in a cover up, only the person I am covering up is me. When I do that, I am only half there. Today I will let myself have my full range of feelings, knowing that they may, at times, be a bit of a roller coaster, but knowing also, that I will land comfortably at the end of the ride. Peace begins with me.

        I accept the emotional intensity of the holiday season

Alexander Pope

  We must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily differences we can make which, over time, add up to big differences that we often cannot foresee.

Mother Theresa