I do not want this disease in my life any more. I am willing to become conscious of its dark spot in my psyche. For as long as I remember, this illness of addiction has surrounded me. It is everywhere in my family. The distorted and stink-in thinking, the grandiosity, living on the edge, the inability to face reality and the unwillingness to be humbled by our own powerlessness over the disease, tears at my heart and sickens my stomach. I see its poison enveloping generation after generation. I am disgusted, horrified and deeply saddened by witnessing the wreckage of this illness.

The power of the disease is awesome

 We carry our past with us…..the primitive and inferior man with his desires and emotions, and it is only with an enormous effort that we can detach ourselves from this burden. If it comes to a neurosis, we invariably have to deal with a considerably intensified Shadow. And if such a person wants to be cured it is necessary to find a way in which his conscious personality and his Shadow can live together.

CJ Jung