There is personal information waiting to be mined inside my pain, parts of me that are being held in silence that long to speak, places within me that want to be felt and understood. Though my sorrow may make me feel like I am falling apart , I know I will not.I am capable of tolerating emotional pain and coming out the other end with a deeper connection with my authentic self. I trust in myself and a power greater than me to hold me through my pain. I can survive my own feelings of pain or anger. The yearning inside of me for what I may have lost, or for what never got a chance to happen is natural and a part of the grief process. I am willing to feel it and to get past it. If I shut it down, minimize it or rewrite it into some cover up story, I am only hurting myself in the long run. I need to feel whatever pain or hurt I may be forgiving; whether it’s myself I’m forgiving or another person.

I can tolerate the strength of my own pain

Oh! Grief is fantastic…as light, it fills all things and, like light, it gives its own colors to all.

Mary Shelley