My disease is not special. It looks a lot like everybody else’s. What matters today is staying on my path. Life is going to feel intense for a while. That’s OK. I have my supports and I will work them. I can go to a meeting, make a call or do some uplifting reading. I am learning not to be unique. I’m  learning to be a worker among workers. I will not discourage myself through wanting to be perfect all at once, I will be happy with small gains knowing that they are not small at all. I will take baby steps in the right direction. This way, I will move along at a manageable pace and absorb recovery slowly and well. When I want it all to happen today, I cheat myself out of my own growth and discovery. I frustrate and discourage myself and then I want to act out or pick up because I can’t stand the feelings of despair that I am actually creating with my unrealistic and grandiose expectations.

 I look for progress not perfection

I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. That is why right, temporarily defeated, is stronger than evil triumphant. 

Martin Luther King Jr.